life in the fastlane

September 22, 2008

wow. i have not been updating a lot at all, no wonder barely anyones visited in a while. anyways at the moment i am taking a break from my homework and studies. god, these weeks have been so hectic. i feel as if i have not been able to get my head on straight.

i havent had time for many things i enjoy, photoshopping for one thing. ive been trying to squeeze in music browsing im doing ok with that. you should visit this: its good stuff. hahaha. its really been hard to squeeze in study time during the weekends and so i can visit vince and his family.

lately ive been doing some of my homework there. its been hectic. Not really rough, compared to other times or other peoples lives, its just chaos. chaos i can live without. ive dropped clubs hanging out with my friends and sometimes leaving my brother even though ive barely seen him.

days just seem to pass slow, but faster than i can handle. i sometimes find myself behind on my work and this just sucks. i still need to apply for college. boo… i want to redo this too because it bugs me.

alas i must return to my stuff because i have many tests and still homework to do. wish me luck C:


“with different lives
we sleep in separate beds
we sleep in different countries
while your voice plays in my head
if i had tried
to be smarter than before
would you tell me that you miss me
would you love me even more?”
                  – close to home by blue six

that for sure, wraps up how i feel right now. its so jumbled in my mind. i miss vince so much, but im so happy he is having a fun time in the philippines. and it was extra nice that i got to hear his voice. mm, to me that was just so great. but to top it off, i got to hear paul and rachel’s too, his brother and sister. to me, all five of them, even with his mom and dad (they have their moments), to me they are home. i feel safer with them and happier and overall more liked. mm, i cannot wait to see them.

7 months?

July 23, 2008

its a happy 7 months with my boyfriend vince. i umm.. dont think he will ever see or read this. but whatever. happy happy..

almost home.. i still cannot believe its almost been a month in texas. its a weird thought.
im excited to go home. i miss my bed, the pull out bed, our tv so i can watch senseless movies at 3am. i miss my friends and i miss having access to a computer at all times. i miss going to the park near home, i miss swimming. mostly i miss all the people there. i dont get to come home to the family i enjoy bursting in on, but soon. soon, i get to see them (:

hello – from texas

July 22, 2008

Officially I have until Saturday here and then I am home free. Don’t get me wrong, Texas has been interesting, seeing my cousin has been nice, but I miss home and I think its time i went back. Sadly, i do not return to my boyfriend for he is somewhere in the Philippines as i write and as you read. To this i have mixed feelings…

I am happy he is going there to see his family and such. I am worried because his past love is there. I know he thinks about the what-ifs, those can kill, and i know he liked her very much. But what about me..? Whatever will be will be. This is little concern to me..

Whats really on my mind is SENIOR YEAR. Next year will be interesting.. and I am excited for my classes. I MISSED PICTURE DAY! yeah. what the hell. I’ve kept in contact with many of my friends as best I can. AHH, mattycakes how fun our talks are. Actually i kid not, i enjoy them even though you know they are kinda weird. I love talking about uncomfortable topics with you.

I am really praying my art major works out for the better (:

– Lara

see what i can do: